new update

Well its been quite a while since I've been here physically.  I've always had this blog on my mind and there were many times when I thought I have to go blog about this but for some reason, just didnt.  So much has happened and there is so much to catch up on.  The main thing is that I am back at WW.  I rejoined this past Monday and I have done pretty good, even though its only been 2 days, lol.  It seems that the big thing I have been worried about is about to catch up with me.  The past few years I have wanted to lose this weight because of my health and I have often worried about becoming diabetic or get high blood pressure, really any number of health issues that are in my family history.  The biggest scare was recently I got a blood clot in my leg and had to go thru all kinds of stuff, like ultrasounds, blood tests and be on medication.  To tell you the truth I was very lucky because the outcome could have been very bad but somehow I caught it in time and everything worked out.  The hardest part about that was being on the Coumadin, which is a blood thinner.  There were so many precautions and side effects to be concerned with that I think that felt a little more stressful than what was actually going on.  The medicine affected my blood pressure too, which also made me stress even more, lol.  The bottom line is that all the doctors involved in my care told me that the best thing I could do for myself was to stop smoking, lose weight and exercise more.  It couldnt have been said any louder, now is the time.  During all this, I felt like I was falling and falling really slowly into a deep dark hole and there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening until one day it just hit me and I said, why not???  Why not stop this ugly cycle?  No one can do this for me but me!  I have to do this and I have to do it now! I got up that day and decided I need to take better care of myself and the best way I can do that is to get back to Weight Watchers,stay on track and keep focused and motivated and just get this weight off of me once and for all.  I also decided that I dont want to be thin anymore,  I WANT TO BE HEALTHY!  So with that I feel that I am ready to embark on this journey again and with everything inside of me I hope to reach my destination someday.

testing

Wow, I cant believe its almost been a whole year again since I last posted.  This is a test for me to see if my blog is still up and running, well not running because I obviously havent been here running it, lol.  I just wanted to see if this was still available.  I plan to add more posts, alot has happened over the past year and I really miss doing this, being here.  Be back soon.